Tuesday, July 19, 2011
In times like that I tend to get a 'hunker down and get through it' mentality. The problem is that often has a negative effect on those around me as I just obsess about getting through the current situation. I of course, often don't recognize this and attempt to stuff it and just get through.
Janelle and I had a conversation a week ago that I a still trying to answer. She had mentioned that playing piano is something that when she makes time for it, calms her. We then talked about other things that are also calming to her like working in her garden, and running (on not quite so hot/muggy days).
Then she turned and asked me to do something for her. Of course I wanted to know what it was before I committed, but then agreed to do what she asked me. She said, "I want you to find something in your life that brings you calm."
I have been thinking about that ever since then. Because that means my stuffing has become ineffective. The frayed edges are showing. The crispy, burnt crust is on full display. In being asked that question, it really shocked me, but at the same time is also made me sad. I am lucky enough to be married to an amazing woman who is willing to tell me what I need to hear, but the sad part is that I didn't have an answer for her.
And as I write this post, I still don't have the prefect answer. But I have been trying to make sure that I am more patient and present with those around me as well as stopping to notice what is going on. I wouldn't say that I have achieved calm quite yet. But we are working on it.
Posted by Mark Kaske